If you go . . .

This is one i wrote recently and one I love too much . . . Dunno why . . .

Have started my next and will finish this week . . . :)))))




When I tell you that I love you 
I have never meant it more than I do 
When your face glows with a smile 
My heart beats as I if raced a mile 
Every moment you see me live 
Its all you and only you give 
There’s no life beyond you 
Nothing more will exist if you go 

       I remember every moment and every word 
       As we move along the long road 
       You are not one I would lose 
       If I do or dont have to choose 

I know, I have made mistakes, 
And I’ll do whatever it takes, 
To make you mine forever and ever 
And to give you all within my power. 
I need you by my side, 
To take my life in it’s stride; 
There’s no life beyond you, 
Nothing more will exist if you go. 

       I remember every moment and every word 
       As we move along the long road 
       You are not one I would lose 
       If I do or dont have to choose 

I wonder if my words’ll reach you; 
Or you to understand what you do, 
Every moment to my soul and heart, 
When you with a sad smile part; 
I’ll do anything to make you understand, 
Coz’, it’s not something I can withstand. 
There’s no life beyond you, 
Nothing more will exist if you go. 

             © 2007 by Sunandha V. 

My Baby Brother

This poem is for Vijay my brother . . . I remember the days I fought with him for really silly matters but i have always loved him like my kid . . . he well knows that but i dunno how much he is gonna accept the fact that he is still the baby I remember with two front tooth gone and a smile that could light up the whole world . . .

(I still remember when you were angry with me and frowning when i compelled to pose for this photo. But I wont tell why . . . )

You are still my pet Vijay . . . and you always will . . .

I never knew you as my brother,
I know you as my kid I love and protect,
I know you as my kid I care and cherish,
I saw myself as a knight to slay the dragons,
If ever I saw tears and pain in your eyes.

I am far away but not so far,
You are a living thought I cherish.
You are grown and a man to everyone,
But for me, you are the new born I saw then,
And the baby I watched take every step.

You are the greatest gift I ever had,
And the lovely person I always will love,
My little Bro', I still find hard to believe,
You are not the baby I held 19 years ago,
I dont wanna believe coz' you're still My Baby Brother . . .
© 2007 by Sunandha V.

This is dedicated to you Vijay . . .

I promise you . . .

I wanna fill you, with a love,
That never; ever fades away;
I rejoice at your smile,
That makes me feel worthy;
And makes me do anything;
That would make you smile,
Every moment and every breath,
I regret; that I hadn’t been earlier.

I wish I could do some more
Take away all your hurt and pain
And fill you with love to the core
Don’t cry, my little one
I promise you the heaven and angels

You give me a love and a smile,
That doesn’t have a reason,
I wanna keep you tucked away safe,
Away from all worldly pains,
I remember, baby, during my pain,
The love you shower without limits,
I have you to return to; my flower;
This is all I need in life;

I wish I could do some more
Take away all your hurt and pain
And fill you with love to the core
Don’t cry, my little one
I promise you the heaven and angels

© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I am out of feelings . . .

My new poem . . . I wrote sometime back but didnt have time to post it here. . .


Is this a game. . .
Or . . .Did I miss something. . .
Is it not still the same?
Your love is all I need.

I am out of feelings
Ii've lost evry thing for you
For a love of deciet
Yet I'm still here for you

I felt the world was mine
Filled with love and trust
When I chose you over time
I gave myself in your hands

I am out of feelings
I've lost evry thing for you
For a love of deciet
Yet I'm still here for you

I dread a nameless future,
With my dreams melting around;
Evry minute around's a torture;
Feeling my heart breaking to pieces.

I am out of feelings
I've lost evry thing for you
For a love of deciet
Yet I'm still here for you

How long am I to trust;
Loving you to bits and not hate,
As if loving you is a must;
And losing my soul in all.

© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I am not me . . .

I tend to think sometimes about what I wanted to be when I was a kid or when I led a carefree life. But am not that now. In the course of life I have started to please every one around me that I now no longer myself, and if I try to be myself I am questioned "Sunandha, why are u changed? You are not the Sunandha I knew." I laugh at these comments coz' I know, Yes I am changed but for good, to seek the girl I had been, Happy and peaceful.

Now I dont wanna hurt any one, but I wanna be myself. Can I be . . . Nope I cant be . . . Why? . . . They dunno my originality, they only know what I was trying to be . . . I was just trying to make them happy . . .

This poems has my own feelings about life and how I feel strapped after I analyzed my life.

I hold on to my past;
Think about my future,
What I was; but,
What I wanted to be,
I knew what I am.

   I am,
      Who every one wanted me to be,
      Who every one thought was special,
      But its not me.

I hold on to a picture,
A dream that was me,
That would always be one,
I spread my wings far wide,
Take a leap to pleasure, but;

   I am,
      Who every one wanted me to be,
      Who every one thought was special,
      But its not me.

I hold on to my dream,
Live a life that’s a fake,
Take a step that’s destruction,
Look back and see me last,
For am not me, but;

   I am,
      Who every one wanted me to be,
      Who every one thought was special,
      But its not me.

I try to make them understand,
I try to make them trust,
I try and keep trying,
That’s not my fault; that’s what;
Every one wanted me to be.


© 2007 by Sunandha V.

I’ve got Nothing . . .

This one I wrote day b4 sterday night. . . no no sterday morning. . .
there was peace all around . . .I wanted to write this.

Guys this is the benefit of being a nocturnal creature or devil
(Thats how my friends call me coz' i am awake
when all sleep and I sleep when all rise up in morning :P) . . .



The night is coming down, dark;
But, I feel myself drown,
In the depth of your eyes,
Shining with all love I ever want.

     My heart’s in your hands,
     My soul’s in your keep,
     I’ve got nothing more to give,
     Just my love in abundant.

The wind is rushing over, cool;
But, I feel so very warm,
Wrapped up in your love,
Forgetting my fears in the warmth.

     My heart’s in your hands,
     My soul’s in your keep,
     I’ve got nothing more to give,
     Just my love in abundant.

I shiver to my very soul,
As the water caress my feet,
United in your love, baby; 
Radiating my fear for loss, coz;

     My heart’s in your hands,
     My soul’s in your keep,
     I’ve got nothing more to give,
     Just my love in abundant.

I just need you by my side,
I just wanna hold your hands,
Feel the spring moving on,
Assuring your love in all words.

        © 2007 by Sunandha V.                 

Feelings

FEELINGS is a small poem I wrote four years back. When I went through all my poems
 now, I felt my poems then a little immature . . . a bit on the wrong understanding
of love . . . that every thing about it is good . . . No it has its bad side too . . .
my recent ones take more and more on the emotional side . . . 
It comes well actually . . .

      

The light in the dark,
Kindled my feelings,
I felt it would be mine;
I lost my sight in it; feeling,
It would lead my way.
I wanted to cieze it; feeling,
It would move away - but
An unfortunate, need not feel,
Coz'it would never be mine.
    
    © 2007 by Sunandha V.